It’s the last day of the year 2005, and I have a feeling that time is slipping by..without me achieving anything….not that I have any colossal goals..but I do have some simple things which I want to learn, to do-my wish-list! It seems like yesterday when I was 18 and my new year resolution was to fall in love…now,I am 23 and I am trying to get over my love for footwear..talk abt change of perspective !!!From a girl with silly resolutions..i have become a woman with unattainable wishes!!! So I sat and drew up the list of things I would want to achieve in the year 2006.After I did that..i had a great big belly laugh..coz my list was so implausible!!! But then, one can dream…cant they?

Now don’t for a minute think that my resolution list is a simple affair…it has new plans…old incomplete carry-overs from the previous years…and sigh!some resolutions which are a constant feature in all my yearly plans.

Changes in my attitude I wanna see:
1.Become organized.Its time to change my haphazard life into a checklist bound disciplined way of staying alive.ok..now stop laughing!!!you know it as much as I do…that is one is probably not gonna ever happen.I thrive in chaos.I am the typical…confused…always in hurry-as I am never on time...sheets all over the place kinda thingie!!!But,one day I wish I would turn into this super smart..everything in control ,cool cat….can u imagine,that when I walk into my lead’s cabin,he actually has to remind me(play the guessing game actually) about what was that I wanted to tell him!!!!

2.Do not procrastinate:The scorpio devil in me says”why do something today when u can postpone it to tomorrow?”Yes,when I want something I can turn into an impatient fire-breathing Dracula…but in general..i am the “will do it tomorrow”kind.This is probably the one thing I hate about myself.I am gonna metamorphise into a do -it -right –now person…may be if not this year then the coming year!!

3.Be more composed.I am tired of my own intensity.Any emotional situation…I come out feeling exhausted.Nothing in the world is worth it. I overeact..I cry...i worry.I wish I could be cool..unruffled..and when told something unpleasant give an amused smile, not bat an eyelid and say”Is that so?” and mean it.I want to stop acting like a cat who’s tail is on fire!!!!

4.Face upto realities-I have been in denial over many things….that I am not growing any taller…I would never look svelte slim….i don’t look 16 anymore…I am bad at mathematics...really really bad..and probably I may never get to marry Abhishek Bachan!!

5.Start Saving.No escaping it…I gotta start saving.No more getting depressed so that I have a valid reason to go shop in shopper’s stop!(haven’t u heard the famous adage-“when depressed…stupid women cry…and smart women go shopping”?).I wont buy myself the 14th pair of shoes,without which I probably will die.Will face death than shell out more money over fancy footwear.Same with clothes,watches,perfume,handbags,jewellery..but I wont promise about moisturizers!!!This resolution would probably kill me..anyways life wouldn’t be worth living..if I cant buy all that nice stuff for myself.

6.Get myself a life-What am I talking about?well I don’t have a social life at all!!!Cindrella would pity me...”pathetic” is the word which describes my social life…and “non-existent” is what describes my love life!!!!The “love life” part is liveable(no boyfriend-mess for me,thank u!) but I need to go out more.I need to be more adventurous socially.Fear of boredom should not keep me away from meeting new people.Do what u fear and the death of fear is sure.So,all I need is to go meet new people and get bored enough to stop fearing it!!!

Activities:
1.Continue my dance lessons.I am happiest when I am dancing or writing.The greatest thing I learnt while dancing..was you need not be very good at something to enjoy yourself.Having fun is more important than being excellent at something.

2.Learn Judo.Wipe the tears of laughter...before you continue reading.Read about judo and was fascinated.Its on my wish-list along with trips to Venice and Egypt..and learning Kathak.

3.Improve my vocabulary. My interest in etymology has been in the back-burner for too long.I want to learn all the words…as of now many of which I cant even pronounce;)

4.Write emails/letters to friends:This was something I was popular among my friends….write long mails..which would put them to sound sleep.Need to start that habit again.

5.Become technically proficient:I am better now...but still way back compared to the average human being.By the end of 2006,I want to be able to make an intelligent conversations on the basics atleast…and not blink my eyes like a blind bunny!

6.Be regular to the gym and to my yoga:This will be a feature in all my resolutions list.From a few months,the lazy bug has bitten me so hard…and plus the blore cold..has made me snuggle harder into my quilt than get up and work out.But from new year,come rain or shine..no missing gym or yoga.

7.Start singing again.-Singing off-key is my forte…and I need to use it more to get on people’s nerves.And its also an excellent way to remember the lyrics of the songs which catch my fancy.

8.Travel more:Need I say more?

9.Read more.

10. Write more.yup! have so many..half completed articles...need to complete them.

11.Cut down on day dreaming and focus .I have had people come nudge me out of my day dreams.This undoubtedly has made people realize how foolish I really am.Stop giving people such insights into my brain or the total lack of it.Focus!!!

12.Laugh more.Worry less.Love more.Fear less.Eat less.Talk less.Work more.

13.Watch more movies.Learn something new every month.Specialize in one thing .Pursue improving my knowledge in art. I have chosen the impressionist age for this year.Lets see.

14.Stop throwing a tantrum whenever my family talks about marriage.Realize that it’s a necessary evil..and keep an open mind.

15.Take care of myself.Pamper myself.switch to juices from tea. Go healthy. Stop lusting over pastries.Learn to act a little coy, atleast once in a while.Be more out-going…and let myself fall in love. Concentrate on my career.

See,how optimistic I am?what do u think are the chances of me keeping all these promises to myself?